Hi and welcome. I’ve added a trigger warning as you’ve discussed suicide. It’s nothing to worry about, it just ensures that other members who may struggle with this subject are able to make a choice whether to read this thread.

I’m sorry you’re struggling so much. Have you seen your doctor? Why don’t you want to talk to your family or friends? Hunni, suicide is never the answer and I can promise you, with help this will get better . Keep talking to us, your family and friends, and your doctor. It WILL get better