Oh sorry Paula I totally didn't think when I was typing. Hope I didn't upset anyone.
Thank you for the links Paula.
Nice to meet you Tom and welcome also.
It's a bit more difficult to talk about it with close friends, find it hard to talk about at all but feel stuck.
I am not sure on the waiting list for a private place. There is a possible place in London I will have an assessment with but that's all I know. So a waiting game.

It seems my usual coping strategies are not working so well which are meditating, journaling, music, photography, talking to a professional. Nothing seems to last that long to actually have much benefit.x