But the doctor said in my case the stress could have had a major impact too. So I have suceeded to an extent, but I must work more on this.

My best friend's pastor tells the members of the church how to avoid or diminish the stressv evel, especially in unpleasant interactions and pressure:" Imagine that you are being a grave." But that is so hard really.

As for my interaction with the person on video... It is so weird but while I was looking into his handsome face, I thought how much I am missing the other guy, whose nose is in fact quite sharp, although he is cute in his way (my weird sense of humour!), but who treated me better than everybody else and in whom I thought I had found my soulmate. Although I realize there is nothing now, but I would want one day someone with not lower attitude than the other guy, so attentive and intelligent, and as for now there is nobody else like him in my life.

But I don't want to idealize anybody, so I have just decided to focus on my well-being now.