Hunni, unfortunately this is never going to be resolved unless you talk about it. ADs can only do so much when there’s trauma in the past like you’ve suffered. Please talk to your doctor, and please make that referral to counselling. Love, you deserve to be at peace with yourself

As for your partner, as you’ve been together 7 years, he surely loves you and only wants the best for you…..

Hunni, I’ve added a trigger warning to your thread. It’s nothing to be concerned about, it just ensures that anyone who might struggle with what’s discussed, can be warned