Thank you so much for your replies they really do mean alot.
I spoke to my husband today about how I'm struggling and he asked me to call the drs which I did. I could barely get my words out from crying so much and all the receptionist could advise me was to self refer to healthy minds ��
I'm all for help and stuff from outside services, I had that when I left the psych hospital however I don't feel that is what I need right now.
I said to the receptionist that i need to speak to my GP and she told me to call back in the morning which I'll do and I'll let you know how I get on.

I'm trying my hardest to enjoy these last few weeks at home with my boy but it's so hard and I don't think lockdown has helped at all. Not to mention I'm estranged from all my family so the support you'd normally get when you've had a baby I didn't have.

Anyway i know there are worse people off than me so sorry for moaning and thank you all once again xx