I don't know.. it's probably my mind telling me I'm such a burden to them and that they'd be better off without me. My mind's constantly saying I'm a looser and will never be good enough at anything, I'll always fail and no matter how I do (even if doing good), there always will be those who did better and sometimes that thoughts eat me up. Don't get me wrong - by no means am I saying that people wird mental health issues are loosers. They all are incredibly strong!
I just have no self-esteem.
I WILL call my doctor this upcoming week though. It can't go on like this, it needs to be done