How is your relationship with your parents? If you have a good relationship I am sure that you can not make them unhappy.

And with meds. I noticed that the ones I take give me a headache if I forget them. But they told me that if I am to stop with them we will do so in a good fashion and there is nothing to worry about.

I am also thinking you have troubles with triggers around you. Things that make you think about your past. And this is in no way a solution but it might help a little. Could you give your room a bit of a make over? Make sure its your safe spot. With as little triggers as possible? Remember that you can make new connection with other hobbies etc. You found this place