Hi Ladies, thanks for the kind responses. It's always productive to receive the objective views of others. I'm just super sensitive and liable to feelings of guilt, always have been. Of course that can inevitably lead to depressive ideation and rumination. Perhaps I should go try some of my ACT therapy.

I'd apologise for me, in the sense I feel it's the grown up thing to do when one has done a wrong to acknowledge that to the other party and accept ones culpability. I passed on my apologies to third party today, it won't cause hurt I'd think.

Essentially I had a heated argument while in a pub that had very minor fleeting physical aspect, but I was ashamed I lost control for few seconds. There was history and provocation, with some extraneous personal stressors.

I don't want to get ill again. Need to meditate maybe.

Thanks ☺��