Thanks for your replies and help. I am surprised that it isn't better to go up to 100 gradually but it makes sense as it chimes with what the doctor said. He said the way to go was to take 1 then 2 every second day for 2 weeks but I thought that would be a bit up and down dosewise. Have been taking care with the pill cutter but yes it prob isn't the same dose every day. Will try and get in touch with the doc tomorrow and see what they say re going up to 100.

My partner does know a bit - have just been saying that I have been feeling a bit down and have been underplaying it for fear of worrying her that we are going back to the place we went to 3 years ago.

Thanks so much - have a feeling I might be back here more regularly and I really really appreciate the help.