I don't get much pleasure from anything. And the things I do get pleasure from aren't really within my control.

I've never been an adrenaline junkie. I have traveled and intend to do more.

But I think the real issue is that I need to feel contentment without these things.

My life is boring or at least boring. And there's nothing wrong with that! It's only boring compared to the fantasy life I had in my head, and I won't be able to compete with that. Is also boring compared to the few times in my life when it has been exciting. I can't compare every day to those few occasions.