Do you think it is fine for me to go to Paris or other part for a few days this autumn?
Not egoist?
Only you and your mum can answer that question although you have to consider the financial cost if you have to cancel last minute. Jaq’s idea is a good one
The purpose of life is not to be happy. It is to be useful, to be honorable, to be compassionate, to have it make some difference that you have lived and lived well.