Hello and welcome here. This is a friendly place where people can speak about things that might not be so easy anywhere else. A lot of people will understand how these things make you feel and how this can take a hold of you.

Alcohol is bad for me too. It is real good at making me feel worse too.

I wanted to ask, if taking meds is making you feel unsure. And NHS therapy has not been a good experience. What do you think would be a good fit in helping you? I remember that I had to see a few different therapists before I felt at ease and in a safe place (I am not in the UK). I have given up a few times. But after getting worse and worse I did feel the need to keep trying.