I want to smile again for real *TRIGGERS*

[EJ]

I’m taking Piradel which comprises of two 400mg tablets and one 200mg tablet. I also take one 45mg tablet of mirtazapine and one montelukast. I tend to take them all at once with plenty of water. I think about the risks of taking lithium and the risks to my kidney and thyroid but I take regular blood test which would pick up any adverse effects. long term it has enabled me to work full time and be active in my social life. Ive never missed a dose but I know with Luther meds missed I’ve been weepy and unable to cope. Lithium works by having a certain level in the drug unique to you. Too much of the drug then it is liable to be toxic and dangerous, too little and it is not being effective and doing its job properly. It has ironed out the peaks and troughs in my emotions although I am not bipolar. My depression was difficult to treat before lithium. I have had several hospital admissions and many different therapies.
I do not see a psychiatrist regularly now but my last psychiatrist would not take me off it. I would not want to jeopardise my mental health for the sake of lithium. I’m not sure of the quality of my life without it if I have any quality of life at all. Life was very difficult without it.