I have SH in the past and I sit here not able to promise I'll never do it again. It's a coping mechanism...not a healthy one but it is something I have used a lot. I am no longer ashamed to say that. I don't like that I did it, i dont like my scars or display them but they are now a part of me, a part of my life, a part of my journey. Just like my stretch marks from pregnancy and weight gain, or my scrawny neck from weight loss.
I have also attempted su more than 4 times. I have abused tablets to try and dull the pain.
We get it Mira. It's a deep dark hole and it feels like there is no way out but I promise you, there is. It's finding what help works for you. Each day it's choosing life instead of death. It's choosing kindness to yourself instead of hate, whether you feel you are worth it or not. Some days you have to make that decision every 10 minutes. It's exhausting. But you see when the darkness lifts a bit, you're glad you made those decisions. Kind ones, healthy ones. Dear Mira, give yourself a chance. Never be ashamed of your struggle. If we all gave into that shame, their would be no forum because no-one would be being honest with each other. Here is a place to be safe. Here is a place to be honest. Use it..gif "(bear)")
