I read sometimes members' posts here, just feeling too frustrated and anxious to speak.

It is understandable from one side as I have a lot of work and not much spare time, also still not getting access to free counselling.

Yes, I'm really over tired, but I'm mainly concerned because of my mother's condition, she feels pains in lymph nodes and with cancer, everybody knows where the things can turn...

I haven't received much relax yet, just slept more than usually on holiday.

This constant fear slows me down.

I've been planning a holiday in June, but not sure what can happen in meantime.
There are no exotic vacation offers (promised previously), unclear situation with my dad (not sure of willing to see them) and if I come to UK, it will probably be just a city break.

I mean I will not be able to see someone of you.