Listen to these ladies, they know what they are talking about. Instead of feeling horrible for not being able to go, can you set up a lovely scene at home and take great pictures of it? My dad gave me camera and asked me to take a photograph about silence. I looked at my home, my garden and everything.. Then I saw it. Silence. An empty bench under a cherry tree. What could be more silent than that? Taking that photo opened my eyes. I used to photograph horses. I still do occasionally. But sometimes you need to photograph what you feel, what you need, and what you dream of. It was empowering. I hope you find your thing and feel better.