Today is a bad day, my depression seems to have gone really downhill over the past couple of days, I'm back to sitting around and getting nothing done and I've just eaten a whole chocolate orange and feel disgusting Lena confided in my that she has thought about suicide and it was the most absolutely devastating thing and I'm going to get her booked in to see the doctor, I feel awful, I don't know where I went wrong but I can't stand to think of my beautiful amazing little girl feeling anything like the way I do, I just feel like such a huge failure, she's only 11 :/