Hi there and welcome to DWD!
I've removed your link as I don't allow links for new members - especially links to blogs etc as often people only post for self promotion.
I have had a look at your blog though, and the biggest thing I need to tell you is that alcohol is anything but your best friend. Alcohol is a depressant. It destroys people's lives and the lives of those around them. PLEASE, PLEASE, PLEASE don't "self medicate" with it...
Please go and speak to your Dr and tell them how you are feeling...