Thank you all for your replys!

I am taking the tablets i've been prescribed, I just don't like the thought of it. My mother has been on anti depressants for the last 27 years. Hoping I won't follow in the same foot steps and this will just be a set back in life for now.

I don't think i'm at a point/place where I feel I could do councelling/CBT, i'm struggling to even want to talk about whats going on to anybody face to face (i've spoke a little more open to one person and felt mighty uncomfortable). Maybe once my tablets kick in and I feel a little better, I can consider seeking further help.

Thank you all for the support though. A welcoming community!