Hi and welcome . The first thing you need to do is register with a doctor. You’re going to need support to get through this and your doctor needs to be the first point of call. WRT your family, I’m betting they know somethings up but don’t know how to help you. You’re not a burden, you’re ill. There’s a huge difference.

I think you’ll be surprised how many of us here also struggle with going out ‘enjoying life’. And I’m willing to bet that not everybody you can hear outside wants to be there. All you can do is work on things bit by bit and, over time, you’ll be able to cope with more