I've decided to write a letter instead..... i feel like i can write it 100x better than having that conversation face-to-face ..... since i'm away from home for a couple more nights then she's got time to read / digest / process it without the pressure of me staring at her or trying to have a conversation with one or both of crying / breaking down and it ending up a mess where i just end up clamming up

I know its not as personal but i think i just need to say it at this point .... once that step is done then maybe she'll have a clearer understanding of how things are right now