Had my first counselling session tonight. Didn't really know what to say as I've never done anything like it before. Felt like I just blabbed on.

She reckons due to events my mind has been in 'survival mode' for years. She thinks that when I was at my happiest and safest that's when my depression came out. Also saying I've been let down by lots of people in the past could have had an affect on me.

Quite tired after it, so early night for me. Day with the daughter tomorrow, gonna go get my hair cut and do a bit of shopping then snuggles with her and no doubt watch Peppa Pig!