It's difficult for me to undertake all responsibility and to stand up to the whole pressure around.

My boss and managers, fears for my mom and fearing to develop cancer myself. My mum feels better thank God, but she blames me for not being so active in church life and that the Muslims I talked to could have used some magic against me so that I get sick (one of priests told her once about their "magical powers").

Each time I experience some pain, I become very anxious as I know she has developed this illness. This Sunday I woke up really broken psychologically and physically. However I'm afraid because of my previous health complaints that I can develop something more.

Generally we get along well and the most important for me is trying to be enough good daughter and I'm dreaming that this nightmare passes away and I can have a good holiday.