I got out of hospital at 5am. I'm at my dad's house. I'm just tired. I've hit rock bottom. Only way is up I guess. New medication will sedate me more so hopefully my mind won't be in overdrive and I'll get some sleep. Rings counselling tomorrow to get enrolled onto it. The pain just got too much. The mental health liaison worker said I need to stop thinking about what I don't have and think positively what I do have. Gonna try to live by that.