Ye I think so suzi, I've been a bit productive by contacting places regarding volunteering & attendin my appointments.Originally Posted by Suzi
Today though I feel like I've taken a step back again.. My cousin were just braggin that he's getting "bitches" as he puts it which hurt me after getting that random cold shoulder on facebook.
I'm sick of feelin like I'm competing with him & my brother to find affection. I want to focus on myself but its hard when they don't shut up about getting a woman. Its a massive insecurity for me so I could do without the bragging... They're also braggin about scoring my brothers gram of coke (& I ain't talkin fizzy pop).
My birthday is also loomin soon on tuesday so I'm anxious about that as well (28, god I feel old). I really don't want to go out with them just caus "theres no one else to go out with". I'm trying to keep busy atm anyway whatever way I can. I'm still so far away from tackling my insecurities despite some progress of late. Is it really so hard to ask what others have in life?.
Sorry again for the wall of text, I feel guilty after typing that much
