Thankyou for your thoughts.
I think my reservations with being back on anti-depressants are mostly psychological. Maybe I am just uncomfortable with the fact that I am depressed (again).
I don't see anything inherently wrong with someone making the choice to take them. I think I am just afraid of having the wrong medication/causing further damage to my mind. All I can do is try though.
My spiritual beliefs have been what has helped me through up until now, meditation has been invaluable, self-awareness. I do have beliefs which would be described as a bit 'out there', I have a feeling that I might be questioned about that in the assessment heh!
Maybe now I do need extra help. It's nice to have your thoughts, so I don't feel as anxious about it.
Doctor said I could take the tablets at night, incase they affect my driving etc. It feels safer for me this way. I need to go back to get more tomorrow.


I'm so glad to hear that your treatment is so helpful Paula, I like to hear that, and thankyou Jarre + Suzi