Messaged him earlier to tell him I feel at crisis point with everything. His family pulling me in one direction to see their grandchild/niece. Him another, the wee one another again. Work now referring me to O/T as I've been off 5 weeks with a Drs line for another three weeks.
Told him how bad situation is here. How stressful and unending everything feels. Anxiety back today majorly, Sertraline had really helped it although not much else.
His reply was "I'll phone soon"
I punched the wall. His version of soon is anything from a day to 6 bloody months right now.
Took a zopiclone at 10:30pm in hope that it might calm me and send me off to sleep, hoping and praying for 3rd time lucky but as of yet still laying here wide awake a million things in my head with no logic or sense to them