I was someone who had just passed my degree, got a job which I wanted, and had a baby and then my husband had his first breakdown and it all crumbled...
I was someone who had just passed my degree, got a job which I wanted, and had a baby and then my husband had his first breakdown and it all crumbled...
Do a little of something that makes you happy every day!
I am very different in different days or even parts of the day.
Sometimes I get optimist, try to do anything, fight any obstacles and move forward. The next day I get back to earth and realize nothing that really matters changed and I'm getting down.
Mornings are the most difficult for me - I feel miserable, very unhappy.
I also have a lot of changes throughout my day. I don't know about you but it makes it very difficult for me to be organised or plan anything, because what I think I can do at one moment, I cannot do in the next. So exasperating! Sorry this post is not helpful advice, just me saying I know how that feels!!
selena (17-06-15)
Good evening!
Whay else could I add?
On the bad side, nothing major changed.
On the good side - I've got new natural period.
My doc said that's progress. but I am upset about things getting so slowly and I regret about all the lost years because of my illness. I put efforts. but weight loss is still slowly. After many years of disbalance is not a surprise, but I wish all health would come back to me again.
don't see those years as lost. No matter how hard and difficult those have been, they made you the person you are now. Be patient, you are on the right way.
I agree with Sam, my illnesses and trauma over the years have 'tempered' me with fire - I am who I am because of those, and I like who I am.
The purpose of life is not to be happy. It is to be useful, to be honorable, to be compassionate, to have it make some difference that you have lived and lived well.
selena (20-06-15)
Yes, it did me stronger indeed and more compassionate toward others. But knowing that this partially destroyed my life, makes me feel very sad.
I know, this was not in my plan .....
The purpose of life is not to be happy. It is to be useful, to be honorable, to be compassionate, to have it make some difference that you have lived and lived well.
The worst thing for me is developing agoraphobia when I can't pull myself out from my house, that could get worse and if that mood moves towards permanent depression one can forget about brushing hair, cleaning etc. And it becomes difficult to fight against it. But I try to do everything to get out from depression because that helps me to improve my condition.
Disability wasn't in my plan either, but then neither was watching and caring for my husband through severe mental health issues. I wish that these things haven't happened, but in reality I wouldn't have the children I do or the home or the husband if things hadn't been as they are.... I wouldn't be so tolerant or understanding or forgiving...
Do a little of something that makes you happy every day!