lol I wish, I fantasise about her everytime shes in my house .. I can't go on anymore ladies, waking up each day with no friends, no girlfriend, I just wanna jump off a bridge. If I was 'ugly' then I'd accept it more but I'm always told I'm a good lookin guy. I've just confined myself to my room for years on end through lack of confidence. Its the only routine i've ever known ..