Thx guys . I did that list a while back & since then i'll be honest i've done absolutely nothing towards changing my lifestyle .. I've continued in my rut of despair, watching the world cup from my lonely bedroom. A lot of that despair stems from a basic need to be loved affectionately. I put on the big 'care-free' persona but its just a front to somehow appear functionel. 24 yrs of being socially inept whats another 60?.. I'd not rather not live than spend another 60 yrs or so lonely ..