Hunni, you've got 2 things being put into place 1. Anti-depressants which will likely take several weeks to really get working and 2. You're waiting for a counselling appt. I know waiting for these to take effect is hard, but they're both really positive treatments. It'll take a little while but they will help. You've just got to trust in what your doctor is doing and be kind to yourself over the next few weeks