Everything is so up and down right now. I know I’m avoiding doing stuff but a the same time I know I’m not ready or able to tackle things so where does self care and procrastination begin and end? It’s so hard being on my own and not having anyone to pick up the slack at times like this cos life might be easier. At the same time just the idea of having someone else in my life feels restrictive. My whole life is a contradiction and I don’t know which way to turn.