Hi Selena, I am sorry you are going through this. You did go through a lot. And it is coming out. The time your mum was not well was long and that will leave a mark.

Losing loved ones so close together is not easy for anyone. But do not beat yourself up for not being able to overcome this alone. First thing that comes to mind is that this will take time. So please give that to yourself. And you have depression and anxiety. So going to ask for help is not only 100% ok. It is a great idea. And I would support that.