It's hard to see things clearly when your head is in a mush. Lots of deep breathing and avoiding people (stress) for the next week. my daughter completed her first day at college today. She came out smiling and said it was good. A year ago she couldn't have contemplated that and there would have been so much SH with anxiety before, during and after. It's amazing the difference a year can make. From what you've said you have come even further in a year. Just like my daughter.... you can do this.
