Depression, loneliness & excessive worry*SH Trigs*

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Then maybe you need to call the police. Get some help. Maybe even speak to your housing department if you are in danger?

Really? IF you are feeling like that genuinely then please get help. If not then STOP saying things flippantly. I will not ask you nicely again.

When I say those things, that's hardly being flippant. I've felt dead inside for a long time, can't even remember the last time I felt emotion other than deep sadness. That's how long lasting my depression has been & it doesn't come & go, it's persistent. Sleep is the only relief I get from the mental suffering I've endured for years. Even getting help is expensive, I've been lookin up CBD oil as it's a natural anti-depressant without the awful side effects & withdrawals. I'm desperate for somethin natural to take the edge off that doesn't come with the I've experienced with AD's. I had another jobcentre appointment today but this whole sanction case is a mess. They're gonna book me in with someone who deals directly with the sanctions apparently.

What do you need to do to break this cycle? It feels like you are going round and round in circles. And when people give advice you give a thanks and nothing else.

I thank everyone's post out of courtesy, that's nothing to do with not acknowledging anyone's advice. Trust me I read everyone's posts a few times over & always go back to them for encouragement. If I didn't leave a thanks then you'd probably think "why isn't he grateful for this advice". A thanks just lets people know I appreciate the advice. I know how busy people are so it means a lot. Going round & round in circles is the nature of depression. I know I'm hard work, I just find it difficult to break this cycle of being a recluse. If you was a serious recluse for as long as I've been would you find it so easy to change & break this cycle?. There's a lot of hypochondriacs like myself who can't seem to get over their insecurities .

Has anyone spoken to the police?

No but tbh the police should be rang on him as well because he's just as threatening as his alleged money chasers. Today he came upstairs & threatened me to hand over my mums phone. My mum told me to use it as its cheaper than landline as she's on a contract. Then he starts banging on my door saying "Oi give me that in phone now!". That's just an example of how controlling he is. When he has drugs or alcohol he's evil. I know I'm bone idle but I've never given my mum or anyone trouble.