My CPN is off long term sick. I phoned mental health today to ask about seeing someone else as my anxiety is high and I'm back using some of my more unhealthy coping mechanisms. I was told that my CPN's caseload had been shared out and that I hadn't been allocated as I saw a psychologist and surely I don't need both.
Am I being too dependant and selfish? I actually broke down and sobbed for about an hour. I feel guilty for asking, weak for needing help and quite abandoned and not understood. Someone tell me to man up please and get my act together.