Anxiety & Depression Hell..*TRIGGERS*

[rose]

It sounds like you had one of those moments when you fought back at depression and decided to beat it. Good on you!
Re the girl.... she doesn't sound that great. You deserve better than that.

[Suzi]

I've started to reread this thread from the beginning to make sure that I wasn't over reacting and I haven't even got to p5 without you swearing by putting spaces in or referring to women in a negative way... I've even quoted the first couple of incidents I've seen..

Life is just f u c k ed up, everytime I open the paper someones died of cancer.When ur depressed its the last thing u want to read every waking day. Its no wonder we're all stressed. Look how hard it is to find a job f f s? Or to build a social life from scratch when every1s on social media. Prospects r a gold mine in this day & age..

aww thats considerate . I'm seriously p i s sed off right now because to be blunt 'some b i tch is messin' me about'. I'm not seein her but we txt & she has just stood me up. People don't realise how simple ignorance can tip some1 over the edge. Especially when ur vulnerable & have never had a gf. I've compromised so much with this person (gave her taxi money, bought her drinks, put up with her pessimistic attitude & evn got ready for her tonight). She wr supposed be here 4 hours ago & has completely ignored my txts. It wouldn't hurt so much is I didnt depend on this person to alleviate this rotten loneliness I feel inside ..

[SA89]

ha they're just empty words atm, havin a sense of direction is the hardest part. Without direction despair is inevitable. Its even harder when u've no real friends to support u, its rather overwhelming to say the least. My 1st step is to sign up for a course that'll set me on the path to a career. Simply being on a path to something will alleviate the stress on 1 of my biggest insecurities. I think the ADs woud be wise to help stabilize me through this but the constant drowsiness could hinder my motivation hmm.. . I'm sure u guys can relate to this predicament & the fine line between stability & breakdown. I'm extremely vulnerable to giving up & crashin down to a flood of tears .

[Suzi]

Thing is there is nothing to say that the AD's will make you feel like that at all, worth a go maybe?

[Paula]

Not all ADs have that effect, I have to take one of mine in the morning because it does the complete opposite. Don't rule this option out, lovely

[SA89]

cool ill try & get the right 1. Every AD iv tried has made me drowsy thts y I mentioned (iv tried mitazapine & citalopram). So is their no way to overcome deep anxiety & depression without ADs? R all ADs actually safe.

[Paula]

I've not been on citalopram so I'm sure one of the other members can comment on that, but mirtazapine was one of mine and, yes, it's definitely a sedative. There are other ways to treat depression, including counselling and CBT, but the benefit of ADs is they can help support you while you go through these processes.

I would say that All ADs recommended by the NHS are safe, though some people can react to any particular AD in a way that requires immediately ceasing the drug. This is very, very rare. There is a condition called serotonin syndrome which, again, is very, very rare and can be dangerous. I've had it, it was horrible while I was going through it but I'm ok and have no side effects .

If I were you, I would see your GP, advise them you need something that is unlikely to cause drowsiness, and tell them your concerns. Honestly, millions of people in the UK take them, and come to no harm. This link will give you more info

http://www.nhs.uk/conditions/Antidep...roduction.aspx

[rose]

I think its a common side effect of mirtazapine to feel drowsy, thats why its best to take it at night.
SSRIs like citalropam, fluxoetine, sertraline are activators... but can have the opposite effect overall, particularly if they disrupt your sleep.
I think they're safe as long as you listen to your doctors advice, you start on a low dose and increase gradually, and keep a diary of your side effects.

[SA89]

ye I took them at night to combat that, I didnt really feel my depression lift though tbh. I've literally just woken up (sleepin through the day again ) & I just feel so flat. It really is the loneliness thats the killer. After i've had a bru & stuff I tend to pick up a bit but its always just me in my room. Browsing through facebook, seein how happy every1 else is with their 'amazing' social lifes. I dread summer so much because I literally do not know what to do with myself. Thats y I retreat to my shell..

I constantly feel like I need to be sortin my career out before I do anythin else, its always at the forefront of my mind as a priority. As a result I can never truly enjoy anythin else. Its so demoralising when u have no meaningful direction in ur life. U literally have to engineer it from scratch & its a real battle..

[Paula]

I'm not going to be too nagging, but sleeping through the day is not good for your body clock, which throws everything else out of rhythm.

You do know that most people only put the good stuff on fb? If you actually ask, most have problems they won't post about. Those 'amazing' social lives are, often, not what they're made out to be. And retreating to your shell will just make the loneliness worse.

I checked your profile, and you're 24. Now, I'm 40 and most of my friends/peers did not have a clue what they wanted to do at the age of 24. My husband has never worked it out, he fell into a job at Vodafone when he was 28 and has progressed to Senior Management almost by accident! And that is the case with most of my friends. A lovely friend of mine trained as a midwife, and is now a missionary in Kenya! It doesn't have to be a battle, just find something you might enjoy for now, and see where life leads you. You might be surprised