Anxiety & Depression Hell..*TRIGGERS*

[SA89]

I attended a depression & anxiety support group the other day, I suppose it helped to be with others who can relate. Some of the stories I heard wr really distressing & left me cold & rather disturbed. I think having a consistent daily routine would be the best therapy for me personally. Every day its just me & this black hole of nothingness, shut away in my room with inconceivable despair. These new ADs r a long way from kicking in as well.. I've noticed though when I'm working my depression is alleviated through the adrenaline rush. It would work wonders to work full time but thats so hard to come by ..

I really do appreciate the support people offer on these forums considerin u've no obligation to do so. I find it to be an invaluable respite in moments of complete hopelessness .

[Suzi]

So glad we can help you hunni.. Are you going to go back to the group?

[SA89]

I may do, I find though that I'm nowehere near as bad as the people there. Its also a bit strange being the only young person, I think its 'caus more matured people don't care about the stigma as much . My 2 main issues really are social awkwardness and a lack of direction but all the speech in the world is not gonna solve that, only I can.

Being somewhere, around people (like the voluntary place I'm writing from) really does help. I dread going home 'caus when I really sit down to think what career to take I get stressed out & anxiety overwhelms me .

[SA89]

Feel so alone right now.. its so disheartening knowin people are livin life to the full with things to do & people to see. I'm sick to death of feelin miserable year after year..

How are u expected to be happy when u're so lonely? Or when u felt 'empty' for so long.. I definitely have some social anxiety & its always restricted me. I'm just so fed up with my life (or lack of) & can't take this misery any longer ..

[Paula]

Feel so alone right now.. its so disheartening knowin people are livin life to the full with things to do & people to see. I'm sick to death of feelin miserable year after year..

How are u expected to be happy when u're so lonely? Or when u felt 'empty' for so long.. I definitely have some social anxiety & its always restricted me. I'm just so fed up with my life (or lack of) & can't take this misery any longer ..

Honestly, hunni, peoples lives aren't generally what they seem. What people post on social media is posted through Rose tinted glasses.

What meds did your dr give you, and are you taking them?

[SA89]

Honestly, hunni, peoples lives aren't generally what they seem. What people post on social media is posted through Rose tinted glasses.

What meds did your dr give you, and are you taking them?

My doc gave me Fluxotine 20mg, been takin thm for a few nights now at 10pm. I agree with u that people put on a facade to make thm look gd. Its frustratin 'caus people at my work are so obnoxious & vulgar but they're all together in a 'clique' and thats the only 'circle' I associate with. At homes no better.. my brother is the most vile, aggressive person u could imagine yet girls love him! . I've been considerate & selfless all my life & for what when these p r icks get it handed to them .

[Angie]

Have you been back to your gp and told them how things are and how your feeling

[SA89]

Have you been back to your gp and told them how things are and how your feeling

ye he just sent me away on drugs as usual -_-.. I suppose thats all they can do, we can only help ourselves as they say. The world doesn't meet u half way. I had an assessment for counselling recently but thats weeks off. I think the key is to find some sense of direction like I said previously because ur wellbeing tends to even itself out. Direction being in prospects & relationships, both mine of which to be f u cked atm. When u find some sense of hope ur confidence naturally improves, I'm just completely lost & this despair is such a struggle to push through. Sorry for bein so negative .

[Suzi]

You don't have to apologise for being honest about how you are feeling.

[Angie]

Dont apologise hun