Hey, it's been a while since I provided an update so here goes. The last few months have been a roller-coaster for me emotionally. Recently I've been attending training for working with challenging behavior. Being part of this positive environment in training has felt amazing & did wonders for my sense of well-being.
Then as time went on, due to the extensive background checks there was a delay in my file being signed off. After my last day in training I was told they were still waiting. At that point I was getting very stressed & burst into tears out of nowhere in the back of someones car. It wasn't a pleasant feeling to see everyone around me have their files sorted except me.
Then today I got the confirmation that my offer was withdrawn from the permanent role due to failing a portion of the training. I've been in floods of tears all day & I'm frustrated why some other people were given the go ahead to work despite having no experience whatsoever. Some even scored the same as me in that part of the training.
They've offered me additional support to pass that portion of the training. If I complete that, they've encouraged me to then join another part of their support team. I went cold turkey on my Setraline about a month ago so that perhaps explains my increased emotional state
