I've not spoken to my agency for 5 weeks now because my mental health is all consuming. I did another shift since I last updated here but it was with dementia again. I've emailed them anyway to be put on support shifts rather than healthcare as that was what I signed up for.

It's been 5 weeks since then & I've not got back in touch. I'm just in bed everyday consumed by worry & despair. Sure I could take my Citalopram but that only makes me more tired. These doctors are so quick to dish out pills. I'm not mentally well but that's down to my reclusive lifestyle. I've lived in my room all my life. Right now I can't function because of the worry. I worry about everythin under the
f uc kin sun. The slightest aches I jump to the most drastic conclusions. I can't escape these worries & never will. I've worried since I was in play school ffs. My head is a washing machine, only the cycle never ends ..