I try & distract myself as best I can from my lonely thoughts but its really difficult when I'm seein my brother with his gf 24/7 (who may as well live here..). And when I'm at work & out of the house I'm surrounded by girls I really like yet r uninterested. I can't escape from these dark thoughts at all. 'Normal' people have no idea what its like to be without friends, to be without love. We're social beings we all need that sense of community. I'm not seein a therapist so its even more unlikely that my wellbein will improve. I've had that many & they just rightly gave up on me .