ye pretty much the thought of stayin in on a weekend.. especially at summer/christmas. Its every1s favourite past-time on my fb etc so its kinda the natural thing to do. The alternative is stayin in on a weekend which I do everyday. When I'm out though my self-esteem is exposed in a place full of strangers. I'm an attractive guy apparently but i'm ridiculously short! (5'3-'4).
Even in Turkey last year, despite the lush setting my mood was still overwhelmingly low. I've broken down in tears several times in restaurants/pub toilets etc.. I'm constantly riddled with insecurity - prospects, lack of relationships, low self-image etc. I'm percieved as a 'gd lad' with a gd sense of humour but behind the curtain I'm so unhappy with this miserable life I lead
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