By the way I really envy most people because most people in life don't have to deal with depression. They get "fed up" that's it over a relationship break up or whatever. Imagine if we moaned about our depression the way they do about their trivial break ups. Oh what I'd give to just be "fed up" like most people & not suffer with this despair every waking day.

Most people go through life just being "fed" up nothing more which is temporary. To deal with depression & anxiety every single day of your life is incomprehensible. It stays with us simmering under the surface. It's an epidemic in society yet there's still a massive stigma. I'm just grateful that I have this forum as a solitude (I even said this to my counselor) because out there in the real world my depression is hidden under a mask of shame ..