Every AD is different and has a different effect on every different person. If you didn't speak to your Dr about the suppressed emotion - and how you feel about that- nothing is going to change. So, coming off ADs is not the only way of truly feeling anything again. I'm on high doses of 2 different ADs, a mood stabiliser, and tranquillisers and still 'feel' many emotions - joy, empathy, love, worry, etc etc. it might just be the wrong AD for you.