I guess there are many here that can relate to what you wrote. I do want to say that this is a good place to be. The people here are nice and kind.
I am in my room so much lately and I only think of the worst things. I think very poorly of myself. Low selfesteem is something I have to. I tend to think everybody is a better person then me and I find something bad in the best things that happen to me
Have you been to your doctor? See what he can do for you?
So you are not alone here on dwd. It's nice to meet you.