Another night of crying myself to sleep. I have a christening to attend at lunchtime but I really don’t feel up to it. At the same time I don’t want to let them down by not attending so I will have to go. It feels wrong to be celebrating right now. I can’t get over the fact that someone so young, someone so good is no longer with us. If I could trade places so she could be back with her family I’d do it in a heartbeat. She had so much to offer the world.