Hi, love, and welcome. So, re introducing your ADs will be the same as when you first starting taking them. It’ll take a couple of months to really feel the benefit. I know right now that feels like forever, but you won’t get to a better place until you’re taking them exactly as prescribed. I know how you feel. I’m about your age and have struggled since I was 16. I’ve been on meds permanently for years but a little while ago I had a horrendous stomach bug and my meds weren’t digested. I became very ill. It was awful for about 6 months but taking the meds and looking after myself eventually helped me feel a lot better. And, hunni, that’s what you need to do.
Part of looking after yourself means stopping your guilt trip. Your children love you, your granddaughter is at the age when she’ll love getting to know you. None of them will be better off without you, I promise. And stop beating yourself up for stopping the meds - it happened, you’ve realised what went wrong, you spoke to your doctor, you’re doing what the doctor wants you to do right now. You’re on the right path.
Just as an aside, when did the restless legs start?