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[Mattypompy]

Just to add a little input from me as your narrative resonates with me. I'm in a very similar place to you my friend, so I feel your pain.

I'm a middle aged guy, massive flare up of anxiety and depression. Like you I have past painful relationships, am very socially isolated with social anxiety. Makes it doubly difficult.

Sometimes I'm so low I don't want to see anyone or look any stranger in the eye. The loneliness hurts and that causes just mega negative self talk and rumination.

Your ideal scenario you mentioned , I have one part, the place by the sea. Need to work on the other two.

What I'm doing at the moment is trying to eat clean, exercise, try and volunteer and get a full review by a specialist for treatment. I've even bought a light therapy lamp. I use it first thing 8n the morning for about 15 mins. My mornings are the worst.

Even getting out of bed and going to the loo is a trial.

I'm here to chat buddy if you like. Your metaphor about being your own jailer couldve been written for my feelings.

Hang in there