The purpose of life is not to be happy. It is to be useful, to be honorable, to be compassionate, to have it make some difference that you have lived and lived well.
Mattypompy (25-01-22)
Vortioxetine has been the only AD that has made me anywhere near stable. I wouldn't let the doctors take me off it now. And I'm also on pregabalin for extreme anxiety. Both drugs allow me to function and have a life, though neither are perfect.
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Mattypompy (25-01-22)
Thanks for the input Jaquaia.
That's really useful information. I'm struggling so much this evening. I clearly need some acute psychiatric intervention to get some prompt treatment.
The social isolation and loneliness is so painful. I've lived alone now for 12 years. All I have is my own thoughts and constant negative rumination. Its like I don't exist. There is near constant deep sadness and unhappiness.
I just don't know what to do. I'm doing everything I can to help myself that I can think of but am getting worn down.
I want to speak to someone in person.
The year ahead I just want to achieve two things have good health, particularly MH and get a job. Anything else would be a bonus.
I just feel this depression is like a huge heavy lead blanket making me feel hopeless and wondering what is the point of existing. Just a really bad evening for me.
Thanks and keep well.
Matt
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Hopefully in a couple of weeks Suzi. I'm trying to raise funds for a quick private assessment then get transferred over to the NHS for treatment.
That brain stimulation therapy is Ł100 a pop. Between 15 and 25 needed apparently. Hopefully I can get it, if needed on the NHS.
I nearly had ECT in 1995 but in all honesty I bottled it and continued with meds. Took about 18 months to come out of thar first breakdown...
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Hunni, did you get any sleep?
The purpose of life is not to be happy. It is to be useful, to be honorable, to be compassionate, to have it make some difference that you have lived and lived well.
Mattypompy (27-01-22)
How are you doing lovely?
Do a little of something that makes you happy every day!
Mattypompy (27-01-22)
Sleeping reasonably well for me, I guess that comment was for me Paula. I do have sleep apnoea and am going for surgery at some point at UCL.
I had a bad Monday Suzi but am starting to feel a bit brighter! Touch wood.
It's either an organic improvement, increase in Venlafaxine or the light box. Or a combination therein.
I have an appointment with a Dr in 9th February down here in Sussex. This guy is a sleep specialist and brain stimulation advocate.
There's a sex addiction specialist at the same clinic.
I've cut out the cider and am trying to lose a bit of weight too. God I despise January
I have sleep apnoea too so I sympathise…
The purpose of life is not to be happy. It is to be useful, to be honorable, to be compassionate, to have it make some difference that you have lived and lived well.
It's good that you're talking more, it's nice being able to get to know you a bit more.
I'm glad that you're involving people - asking for help. That's really hard, so it's great you are doing it.
What's the sleep apnoea surgery?
Do a little of something that makes you happy every day!
Mattypompy (28-01-22)