You know what?
Taking the step to actually take control of your mental well being and grasping hold of that help.... that's the bravest (and best) thing you'll do.
But yes it's hard, all of us have struggled to take that step at some point, it's scary and may feel like you have opened a can of worms you would rather leave closed.
Thing is.... that's not working, that's why you have become unwell. If you are serious about wanting to feel better and improving your mental health it takes you to be brave and make that choice.
It also means you need to be prepared to take an active part in your recovery and engage with services.
If you are not ready to do that then maybe this isn't the right time for you, but unless you deal with your demons things are not likely to improve much with medication alone. It's tough but I believe in you, you can do it.